8 weeks left

I was driving home from work when I stopped at the gas station to fill up my car. In the car next to me was a young woman with a very elderly gentleman in the passenger seat. I saw that and it reminded me of these recent months when I would drive my maternal granddad to his medical appointments. Before my maternal grandfather moved to USA to live with us, after the sudden demise of my grandmother, I used to be a travel buddy of my paternal grandfather. I used to fly to where ever he was and would fly him to where ever he wanted to be. My dad is seven siblings all spread across the USA. When my paternal grandmother passed back in 2011 our lives were around my grandfather. He was suffering from Alzheimers and would remember only a few people. I was lucky enough to be his travel buddy. My paternal grandfather left us for heavens in 2016. I am very blessed to still have my maternal grandfather around. Thinking about all this made me smile and teary. That caught that woman's attention. I asked her that if he was related to her. She told me that his grandfather has been home for his birthday from nursing home. She told me he was not doing good. We talked sharing how blessed we were. When I left the gas station, the picture of my two set of grandparents were flashing right in front of me. My maternal grandfather is visiting India for my cousin's upcoming wedding so he is not home too.  What I thought was that we take our most cherished relationships for granted. Its when they leave we think about what we are missing. We are either scared or may be dont care about sharing our love to our nears and dears because we dont realize that the time will end someday.

Relationship whether its with parents, siblings, grandparents or anyone, it is very important that we share our love with them. We should not wait till the last moments to share what we feel and then repent if we dont get the chance to. The same way it should be with our romantic relationships. We like someone and we keep it to our heart. We let our feelings and our heart suffer. We dont share with them because of fear of being rejected. What will be the worst outcome of asking the other person out, they will tell you no. They will tell you that they dont feel anything for you or their gut feeling tells them otherwise. That is OK! it is okay to go through that because it only makes you stronger. You have to be confident about yourself. This is something I have learnt recently. I used to keep my emotions to myself and then feel hurt. I would assume things on behalf of other people without even knowing that what they are thinking. If you are confident about yourself you will have no problem in sharing what you feel. We have to keep the fear separate from relationships. We have to be "ME" even when the life doesn't feel like that its going in the right direction. We should not keep grudges with anyone, we should either forgive them or work it out with them. Sometimes people hurt us in a way that we dont feel like ever talking to them again, what good does it bring? nothing! we only get frustrated and waste our own precious energy. We should always let go things and forgive people. I am not saying that let people walk all over you but to keep your own sanity we should forgive and move on with our lives.

Before I leave for my trip, I will forgive all the people who have hurt me and will ask for forgiveness from people who I have hurt. There might be people who I dont even know that if I have hurt them but i want to go with a clear heart and absorb all the good while I am traveling and experiencing new things in life.

Dont wait to tell your loved ones how much you love them, they might have hurt you, but a hug, a phone call, a text, an emoji, a Facebook wall post, a letter, flowers, chocolates... anything.. Just let them know how much you love them and that you cant function without them.

Picture 1:With my Life Line, my everything; my parents

Picture 2: With my second set of Life line, my second set of parents (actually my uncle and aunt but for me they are my parents)

Picture 3: The people who have spoilt me rotten, who are my angels; my paternal and maternal                             grandparents